The future used to worry me. I used to lay awake at night concocting in my mind all possible evil scenarios that can befall my family and me. Things like losing our jobs, our home or even our lives. What if one of us have an accident that will prevent us from living our lives fully? What if Babar, our dog, falls ill and die? I try to imagine how I would deal and cope in these situations. My heart would race, and I would become very agitated. I would feel helpless and desperate as if those things were already happening to me right there and then.
Martin Heidegger, a German philosopher, had said that we human beings, true to the definition of our nature as ‘ beings’, constantly project ourselves in the future; wanting things, expecting things. Ahead is where we truly live, not in the present. We exist in our imagination of things we desired to do, and what we desired to be. The same can be said of our fear of misfortune falling on us. It holds our emotions captive, wasting our time and energy. A happy day can turn sour in a snap of a finger just by worrying about the future.
Whenever I voice my concern to my husband, he would often reply with his reassuring words, ” Don’t worry. We will manage.” Remarkably, we most often do manage whatever it was that we were facing or going through. Up until now, nothing as bad as my worst nightmares have ever come our way. There have been tough times for sure. But my anxieties felt a lot worse when I was anticipating them than when I was already dealing with them. It made me realise that most complicated situations are indeed manageable.
Nowadays, when fear and worry creep up in my mind on a quiet day. I would hastily brush it away with my new comforting mantra. ” We will manage.” Nowadays, I stopped wasting my time in the anticipation and fear of the future, which is really pickle anyway. I instead invest my energy and time in relishing and enjoying my present.
-JMKhapra, copyright 2013